I don’t think I’ve ever before lamented the passing of
summer as profoundly as I do this year. Maybe I’ve just always covered it with
my excitement over the coming autumn. But I’m not excited.
I am weary…
I’m weary of tedious boredom and bleeding (full moon to full
moon).
I’m weary of the lack of material comforts, however small
and un-needed.
I’m weary of the knot in my stomach when we compile a
grocery list or try to buy the gas to get the girls to work and back… the
throbbing in my head when find myself in the middle of the month, yet again,
with the rent unpaid.
I am weary of the seemingly bottomless feeling of sadness
over the loss of friendship.
I am weary of constant chattering.
I’m weary of the unmanageable clutter that comes from too
many in too small a space.
Today… for weeks, really… the list has been endless.
Yet all the while this weariness wears on my heart and mind
I am ever aware and thankful for what I do have. That list is, most assuredly, longer. So I’m left with a feeling
much like I’m a whining, spoiled child.
I am not.
Today I will, once again, clear this home of negative, hopeless
and useless energies. I will dust and place fresh flowers on the mantle. I will
smile… speaking softly and with kindness although I would prefer not to speak
at all. I will put my hands in the soil. I will travel to the circle of cedars
and cry. I will do my daily work with intent and purpose.
Tonight I will lay my troubles, the best I can, with my dear
mother moon… as I have so many times before. I know with certainty that the
only constant is change and this too shall pass. I’m just weary. I don't feel my energies are right to join in the CS spellwork. I'm sorry, dear friends.
... to heal your hearts. There is no comfort that compares, for me... balm for my soul. I found all manor of beauty, Gaia style and was, once again, renewed and transformed. Some of these are from last weekend and some the week before... Oh, and those crazy pumpkins, lol... we have to jump them to get up the front stairs! I'm attempting to train them into the yard but they are a pleasing yet unruley group, much like the strawberries :P I am hoping, in ernest, to have one near ready to bring to Em's for Mabon! How does stew in a pumpkin sound as CS community fare? Surely we can make a killer stew from all our garden harvests!
Morning all! I hope it still is by the time I get this blog
to load up, lol! (((Group Hug)))
It’s a gorgeous HOT summer, Saturday morning here in the
valley. Yesterday afternoon and last night’s full moon soaking rains combined
with the heat and the sun of today will make my garden very happy… which in
turn makes me very happy :) Plans for the day? Nope! Not a one… as a matter
fact I fully intend to putter about with no regard for time or schedule. I was
served breakfast in bed this morning and I suppose it set the tone for the day!
Thanks, honey :P
I’ve been ‘full mooning’ it all week and have had a good
deal of success in drawing blessings to me. Isn’t it funny that when you expect
it the least you wind up with the most wonderful surprises? Earlier this week I
was just going along, enjoying the sudden break in taxi service (Amber got a
car!), chatting with a certain witchy love when she suggests something for
herself that hit me with such force and power, I was nearly dazed. OMG’s, I
know the direction I want to take! Holy crap!! I’ve been in a holding pattern
for a long time now. Waiting for the children to grow, waiting for oh I don’t
know… the grass to grow, I guess. I knew that a major change was at hand in my
life. Of course it was… I’ve just passed the forty mark a few years ago… but
until just this week I hadn’t any real clear idea as to what, where, when or
why. You know how it is… the more you try to figure it out the less clear it
becomes so you just hold tight and trust. Ha! What a great build up, eh? This
is going to sound less monumental to you than the earth shaking revelation it
was to me. I’m going back to school… full time for a BA in Arts, concentration
arts management. What the hell am I going to do with that, you ask? You’ll see,
my friends! I assure you it won’t go unused or idle. All I have to do is figure
out how to fit floriculture in there and I’ll be all set :P Now, you must
understand, normally I mull things over for a ridiculous amount of time before
I make a decision but when something’s right, it’s right. In a matter of a few
days I’ve chosen a school, picked a major and a minor, filled out all the appropriate
applications, banged out a brilliant admissions essay and started the funding
process! I feel the full moon’s blessings in a huge way and I don’t have a
single misgiving. This is meant for me. It fits. My whole 20+ career as a florist I've been going in the service entrance... I'm coming in through the front door from now on.
Well, there you have it… and I owe the timeliness of it all
to one special, incredible, stupendous witch. I love you, dear. May you receive
the return of this blessing bestowed x’s ten!
Hope everyone’s full moon was fab! Enjoy the weekend, dear friends.
Hi everybody! I’m connected!!! Well, kind of… it’s dial-up
but it will do for now :) It’s a bit difficult to navigate some pages and
uploading pics is damn near a full day event, lol, but I’m not complaining. I’ve
missed being on daily so much that it’s an absolute joy beyond words to sit down with my
witchies and my coffee! (((group hug)))
It’s been almost two weeks since I’ve blogged and not a
whole lot has changed since the last one *shrugs* Girls are a pain, boys are
perfect, you know the drill. Life goes on… I'm sure looking forward to the full moon!
This past weekend Will and I did have a treat for a day. He
had a job to look at in the Saranac Lake/Lake Placid area so, under the guise of
work, we headed to the Adirondacks! The gas
and lunch were on Will’s company! Bless them… we really needed that. One of our
favorite journeys is Route 30 from Schoharie to Lake
Placid (about 31/2 hrs straight drive) but it takes us much longer
as we often stop to explore. This time up, I saw my first black bear in LongLake but
the highlight for me was The Wild Center in TupperLake.
Now my first thought was, “Why would you put this smack in the middle of the Adirondacks? Can’t people open their eyes anywhere in
this region and see this?” Apparently not… c’est la vie. I shouldn’t be
surprised but I was. At any rate, it’s an amazing ‘green’ facility full of all
the things you’d expect to find when you trek up to these parts. An excellent
educational tool for the wee folk and just a beautiful way to spend the
afternoon! If you have a moment, check out the site, as I would never be able
to convey all the wonderful things you can experience there. They also have a
fab movie for homeschoolers on the history of the Adirondacks.
Well, for anyone really but that came to mind first! Really… if you have a
moment, check out the site… you’ll love it!
Well, that’s all the news fit to print here… How’s your
summer going?
Blessings and love to all my dear friends… I’ve missed you
all more than I could ever say. (((group hug))) The cards, letters, calls, texts, comments, messages and loving energies that have been sent to keep me close have been the bright spot and I'm blessed to be part of such a beautiful circle. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. <3
xxx ooo
P.S. Ha! I almost forgot... my (bi)weekly pics! Thought you got out of it, didn't you? :P
Most of these are from the weekend trip. Sorry, no bear or skinny dip pics :( the bear was too quick for me and this is a family site, right? Ha! ...oh, and one of my Echinacea in the Witches garden. Btw, if anyone knows what that gorgeous water plant is, please, please, please enlighten me... I can't identify it and it's driving me nuts!!
I love dial-up... it took these over an hour to upload!
